Benvereen
was undoubtedly a family man. But he had lost something along
the way. He made a pledge to the most ethereal and wispy clouds,
in hope that whatever was lost would be found. He still loved
his wife, but he wasn’t sure that that kind of emotion was the correct
kind of emotion in the current decade. When he wasn’t praying,
he kept his eyes fixed on the ground, not far beyond the tips of his
toes, expecting that an answer soon would be there. He became
well-acquainted with the town’s highways and driveways, the walks
hollow and dense, the covered lanes and exposed alleys. He’d
sometimes flip a shiny bit into the fountain and hope that it’d settle
the right way up.
He’d worked
at The Sip Shop (No Bites For Over 50 Years!,
the sign boasted) since he’d ever had a job. That made his face
well-recognized around town. So it was quite unlikely that his
wife didn’t know he worked there, especially on the day that she
strolled in with Slim Goodbody. Benvereen knew that she
wasn’t there to see him; at least her record showed that she
didn’t visit her husband at work. They sat right down in his
section. Benvereen looked to his crew chief for a respite and was
offered no such thing. Your table,
she snapped. He set to it and took their orders. To this
day, Benvereen still considers that table often, and he still is not
sure if his wife recognized him. At the end of the night, he didn’t
expect a tip and he didn’t get one.
Benvereen
reacted to the incident. He began to make his own friends. He took
up dancing on the side. Although many swore it was his true vocation,
he refused to consider it more than a distraction. But he knew he
was good and he suspected that soon his wife would catch wind of his
beautiful, restless shoes. You dance with such
vigor, his instructors told him. Your feet are filled with
such wonderful spite, his colleagues added.
Finally,
they had a recital. Benvereen left tickets at the door. He
saw the whole staff of The Sip Shop clamoring for the first
row. But the footlights blinded him beyond that; the rest of the
theater was an empty black cavern. He never knew if his wife sat
in the dark and watched him dance – on that memorable night. And
he never dared ask.
Hobby soon
turned intolerable for Benvereen and he returned to living life only
through substantive channels, like his trade. He sold his shin
guards for half of their market value and exchanged his stockpile of
balsawood for a new apron. He was home every night in time for
dinner, usually with fresh bread. Often his wife would be there
too. It was at the dinner table that he learned she was working
too: refurbishing the old Canal District. This struck him as interesting;
her work was very similar to his. He told her to be careful of
dragonflies – and he meant it sincerely.
What Benvereen saw at The Sip Shop that particular night, now many years past: his wife enjoying drinkable yogurt cocktails with Slim Goodbody. Slim Goodbody’s face, famously inscrutable, revealed nothing of what the man was feeling, but Benvereen’s wife was content. Benvereen had seen greater joy in her eyes, but such peace, he didn’t know if he recognized. While they waited for their drinks, Benvereen served them a small plate of complimentary Saltines, belying The Sip Shop’s slogan. Slim Goodbody pushed the plate across the table, and as his wife accepted a cracker. Benvereen thought he saw their fingers almost touch.
